Currently immensely distracted from everything by everything. *sigh* I'm fed up of stuff for uni, stuff for home, stuff for my writing, games I'm playing, books I'm reading, and I really don't know why. I wish I'd get over it, though, because it's a bloody nuisance. Pretty much the only things I can be completely focused on at the moment are dance and Old English. I want to be able to be so focused on everything else I'm doing, too...I just can't seem to figure out how to go about it. I'm just apathetic about so many things right now, and if I have trouble it seems so much easier to just give up rather than work at it. Gaaah.
There's a couple of big things going on at the moment in my life. The first is that I passed grade 7 ballet with distinction, which I'm kind of astounded at, but also incredibly pleased. Secondly, at uni I have to decide on my subject for my dissertation next year and do a survey of recent critical material on my topic...on the one hand, it's pretty interesting, but on the other it's a lot of work and it's starting to drive me slightly nuts. A couple of my friends are having a hard time with their topics and they understandably complain about it a bit, but I've got so fed up with everything I feel kind of irritated from even hearing a little bit about their problems. Which is totally stupid, because that's just being unpleasant and unsupportive, and I really don't want to be like that with them. Aaagh.
Lastly, I'm working on some fanfiction for the first time in absolutely ages. At first it was great to be writing again, and things were coming along slowly and surely, but I keep getting blocked by really simple things now I've got the whole thing plotted out, and I keep thinking the narrative voice fluctuates a lot even though it doesn't and getting paranoid about it. It's pretty frustrating.
Hopefully I'll be out of this slump soon.
Ria~





